Tag: emotions
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Hail, Ye Guardians of the West: STOP!
At first, I had to wonder if I’d said something to offend the Guardians of the West and the Element of Water. Maybe forgotten to dismiss them in ritual or something. First there was the slow leak in the toilet that eventually was fully flowing a few months ago, jumping up to a sudden 11,000…
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Emotional Intensity: Good, Bad, and Narrow
Copyrighted by Lorna Tedder. Originally published in Third Degree and Rising. Since when is emotional a bad word? The ultra-stoic Big Daddy of my career field used to call me “emotional” when he’d read an analytical report from me that he didn’t like. In spite of that, if he needed someone to prepare a case…
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Insomnia
I wish I could be like those people who compartmentalize their lives. They put all their feelings about a certain subject or person into one little box and have no trouble separating it out. They stay off the emotional battlefield, even when they’re lobbing grenades and don’t know it. They set things aside and wall…
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What Really Scares Me
Just when I thought I’d worked through my fears, I came up with a new one. A long-time acquaintance of mine joyously described the mission that’s taken over her life. She’s been studying reiki and massage therapy to some degree for several years, but she’s recently jumped full-fledged into pursuit of learning everything she can.…
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Things I Can’t Say
My daughter posted on her private blog a list of 10 things she wishes she could say but she can’t, for varying reasons, and it made me think about what I wish I could say but I can’t, also for varying reasons. And why I can’t say them. Many of the important things I need…
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Conversations While Dozing
Copyrighted by Lorna Tedder. Originally published in Third Degree Curves. I’m half dozing but my mind is going like crazy. It just never stops. The emotions I feel are jumping all over the place, and I can’t get a fix on any of them for very long at a time. It’s someone else’s emotions, that’s…
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Fifth Chakra Exercise: What I Wish I Could Say (2010 Version)
The first year I tried this exercise, I had a list as long as my arm. It was only “supposed” to be ten things, but I kept going, shocked at how much I’d kept bottled up. A few years later, the list was down to the five to eight range. Last year, I had to…
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Authenticity and Moving Forward (Comparing Men to Mud)
I am suddenly living my life “in the open.” But that’s not quite the right analogy. Queen of Metaphors that I am, I am still searching for the best way to describe this new shift in my life toward even more brutal authenticity of emotion. For several years now, I’ve allowed honeysuckle and roses to…
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A Wonderful Summer Solstice
With rain on the horizon, a lot of local Solstice rituals were cancelled because they were weather dependent. Or because it was just way too hot outside. Neither was a problem for us. The weather cooled down the moment the circle was cast, the mosquitoes we’d been slapping all day disappeared for the whole ritual,…
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Reclaiming My Voice: The Fifth Chakra Connection to Illness and Communication
The first thing people notice about me–the people who read just about everything I write–is that, in person, I’m actually not very talkative and when I do speak, I have a soft voice and a quiet manner. Most people are surprised because they know I have a lot going on in my mind and heart,…
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Banishing Doubt: Trust, Truth, and Deep Connections
I am still working through the revelations of this Scorpio Moon, especially in regard to Trust and Truth. I am trying to figure out for myself why I have had such difficulty in trusting connections when communications fail (see previous post), trying to take it back to its earliest form to understand how this pattern…
