Copyrighted by Lorna Tedder. Originally published in Love in the Third Degree .
I wish I could be like those people who compartmentalize their lives. They put all their feelings about a certain subject or person into one little box and have no trouble separating it out. They stay off the emotional battlefield, even when theyâ€™re lobbing grenades and donâ€™t know it.
They set things aside and wall it off so they donâ€™t have to think about it, so they donâ€™t risk vacillating. Then they push forward with what they have to do and do it.
My motivation is tied to my emotions and itâ€™s hell to push myself to act when I am raw and even worse to pretend Iâ€™m inspired when I am hurting inside. No matter how much I would like to shove things aside and not think about them right now, I cannot.
I canâ€™t compartmentalize. Iâ€™m just not wired that way.