Day: May 6, 2010
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Following Intuition, Not Logic
Nothing makes me acknowledge my intuition faster than a primo business deal that everyone else thinks is great, but it just doesn’t feel right to me. People are shocked when I don’t agree. They expect me to explain myself, to defend my decisions not to take advantage of the opportunities they give me. There was…
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Letting Go
I’m gritting my teeth and saying goodbye. Box after box of dreams and plans. Some are remnants with lizards or sunflowers. Some are satin for pillowcases. Some are folds of upholstery fabric for chairs long gone. Some are yards and yards of sleek cloth intended for long party dresses. I’ll keep a very few pieces…
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Happy Solstice!
What a very interesting Summer Solstice Day it’s been! The bad first, then the good. Lots of wild energies, including another theft from inside my front yard, which explains why Grendel’s been living up to his name recently, oh he of the ferocious barks. I’ve lived in the same house for almost 13 years and …
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WTF Dreams and Place-Holders
I had another dream, an utterly bizarre, what-the-fuck dream. Yeah, another dream about my ex. That’s what? Five or six in the past month or so? To- tally boggles the mind. They’re nice, friendly dreams! Partnerships. Laughing as we make dinner together. Joyfully talking about our prosperity together. Talking about our dreams and making plans.…
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Human Facets and the Natural Tendency to Fill in Blanks
One of my colleagues is seriously pissed off at me right now. She thinks I’ve been writing about her…I haven’t but I am now, and so she knows the difference, yes, I know I should have cleaned out my car yesterday before picking her up for lunch but my early meetings ran late and I…
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Nothing Will Satisfy
Uranus is stationing retrograde, meaning all that electric energy of the unexpected is turned inward and we’ll see a lot of strange personality transformations between now and Thanksgiving. Lots of strange and intense energies surrounding us these days. I wonder if that has anything to do with this feeling of not being satisfied with anything…
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The Boy Finds His Heart— Prince of Cups
I ask to see a year into the future…late Summer or Autumn of next year. I want to know what happens to my Prince of Swords. And this is the card that comes. The Prince of Cups. Of all the cards…. It’s incredible to me, the difference in a year. He is the same man…
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The Wanted Poster: Prince of Swords
I’m experimenting, testing, trying my intuition. My clairvoyant friends tell me they’ve seen this man in my future and they try to describe him but to no avail. My kingdom for a psychic pal who can draw! The Prince of Swords (in the Witches’ Tarot deck) has been presented to me recently as someone very…
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Working Through: Breaking Through
Thursday night, driving home I’m not sure, but I think I understand this up-and- down pressure in the past week, the constant waffling between 1. consciously seeking out a relationship among the many choices I have right here and right now and 2. waiting for something better. I’ve been hearing a lot of whispers for…
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Working Through: Directing Energy
Thursday, lunchtime, walking between buildings to yet another meeting. Scientifically, I must decide where to allocate my energy. That’s what my current dilemma boils down to. I have a lot of personal power, a lot of energy…even when I’m fatigued from overwork, like now. Not the kind of ADHD energy that leaves one bouncy but…
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Working Through: Moving the Earth
Driving to work, I waffle by the hour about a new man, then ten minutes later, again. I’ve never been this indecisive. Something is shifting. Someone is going to make the earth move.
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Manifesting Men
While in Daytona, Maggie Shayne reminded me of one of the earliest lessons I had in magick—structuring reality…also known as manifestation. It’s not that I had forgotten it. At this point in my spiritual path, it’s inherent in everything that I do, but I needed to be reminded of the process, how things move through…
