Copyrighted by Lorna Tedder. Originally published in Third Degree Below.
Iâ€™ve been playing with heavyweights for a couple of weeks now, and getting soundly beat up. Probably by my- self as much as by anyone else Â because I keep trying to figure out what I could have done differently. Â Based on what I know and what I saw and how I was trained, the answer is that perhaps I could have done something differently but given a Â cosmic do-over, thereâ€™s very little I would do differently without risking a worse repercussion elsewhere.
Itâ€™s almost at the culmination now, and itâ€™s come to light that if I was wrong, then so were hundreds of others who shared my philosophy. I wasnâ€™t the first to make the judgment call, but like the game of musical chairs when I was a kid, I got left standing. The music had been playing for a long, long time.
Now my credibility is at stake, but not just mine. The problem is, Â when youâ€™re playing with heavyweights Â and they want something a certain way, thatâ€™s the way it usually ends up. Then the next heavyweight comes along and people scatter.
Iâ€™ve given the situation a lot of thought, if not a lot of words, and I Â hate those situations where a heavyweight looks at you and tells you Â what Â power you have to do things on your own, but you can only dare to do so much on your own before youâ€™re told youâ€™re wrong.
It made Â me Â realize Â something Â about Â both Â personal and professional relationships. When one realizes that the relationship is out of balance, itâ€™s the one who carries all the weight whoâ€™ll insist it isnâ€™t.