A Different Energy
Copyrighted by Lorna Tedder. Originally published in Third Degree Tilt.
Itâ€™s been six days in Daytona Beach, and the epiphanies have Â been incredible. Itâ€™s totally changed the way I look Â at Â so Â many Â things. Of course, Â when Â realizations come that fast, they kind of boggle the mind and even hurt a little bit. This trip was nothing like I expected.
I guess Eye Opener #1 is this energy I feel here. Itâ€™sÂ very healing. Â I didnâ€™t Â expect to like Â Daytonaâ€”at Â allâ€” because Iâ€™d not cared too much for the energy on previous trips 50 miles south of Daytona or 50 miles north of Daytona. Â Iâ€™d Â never Â actually Â been Â in Â the Â Palm Coast/ Daytona Â Beach Â area, Â not Â evenÂ driving Â through. Â Funny that Â Iâ€™ve driven almost down that far or almost up that far, but this Â stretch Â of Florida is one Iâ€™d never encountered. So I expected to hate it and find it grungy and dull and Â beach-trashy. Â Instead, Â I Â was Â surprised Â by the Â turquoise of the ocean and breeze on my face and the sense of forgetting everything left behind at home. Not that I would move here, but I can see how easy would be to forget all about the place Iâ€™ve lived for so long and every- one and everything there.
But it feels good here, this energy. Thereâ€™s a playfulness and a friendlinessÂ that was evident in the first couple of days and only grew stronger through the week.
The first surprise was a man dancing on the sidewalk, just carefree and happy and in the moment. But he wasnâ€™t the only one.
I was taken aback by the friendly, good-looking men everywhere saying Â hello Â and Â striking Â up Â conversations. This isnâ€™t something I find back home. Ever. Back home, itâ€™s Â so Â conservative Â and restrictive Â and Â the Â men Â there donâ€™t seem to like my preferences in clothes or attitudes or beliefs, so it was a shock to find so many here who were appreciative of the real me, instead of expecting me to be what they want me to be.
Iâ€™d thought Â it was Â something Â I just Â had to endure, those attitudes. So the eye opener is that the energy in the place where Iâ€™ve made my whole adult life is not conducive to who I am or what I want, and that the energy in other geographical places is actually much better for me. I always thought the place I was living was great and nice and I couldnâ€™t expect any more. But my relationship with my geographical area is like a relationship Â with a person, and sometimes you donâ€™t realize youâ€™re just Â settling for something youâ€™re used to. Not that it isnâ€™t great and nice, but omigods, Iâ€™d weep openly if I had people be as open, friendly, Â and Â playful Â around Â me Â as Â Iâ€™ve Â seen Â among strangers this week.
Now I sort of understand what different friends have meant about just get out and meet people and what could be so hard, when they didnâ€™t understand at all what the energy is like in the place Iâ€™ve built my life. I just never realized how different a geographical energy could be for me, and how good it could be for me, even if I have no intentions of living there. Itâ€™s made me think.