Looking for Signs
Copyrighted by Lorna Tedder. Originally published in Third Degree Tilt.
Often when weâ€™re faced with decisions that we donâ€™t want to make Â or decisions that arenâ€™t clear, we ask for signs or look for them. â€œGod, please if Iâ€™m supposed to do this, give me a sign and make it so clear Â that Â even I would understand it.â€ You know the mantra.Â Â I used to ask for signs all the time, now I only ask when my intuition isnâ€™t clear about something or when Iâ€™m so close to a subject that I just canâ€™t be objective.
Thatâ€™s been happening with a particular project that I have not Â been Â ableÂ to decide whether Â I want Â to pour more money and time into it, or do I stand firm and wait it out, or do I ditch the matter altogether. Honestly, Iâ€™ve been leaning towards ditching it, but I Â was still open to other possibilities. I donâ€™t have to make a decision immediately, so I would rather wholeheartedly ask for a sign to show me whether I should do it or ditch it.
My answer came in an unexpected Â email from a per- son I donâ€™t know. I didnâ€™t even realize until I was halfway through the message that Â this email was the sign I had wanted. My response Â to the email, Â which Â was initially very positive, gave me the impression that I should hold firm.
Itâ€™s my sign, I thought. Iâ€™m supposed to be doing this. Iâ€™ll keep it up.
And then I got to the PS.
It was incredibly negative and a huge backhanded slap that made me suck in my breath and realize that not only should I not only pour any more money into this project, but I never should have gone this route to begin with.
I had my sign all right. The person who sent the email did not intend Â the results that are going to happen, but when someone is looking for a sign, it can come from a very strange place, even the most innocent.
That sign Â is often Â usually the Â proverbial Â last straw. Admittedly I would have preferred a gentler sign.
Several years ago, my friend Audrea reported seeing a big, lighted marquee outside a church on a lonely country road.
The marquee said, â€œIf youâ€™re looking for a sign, this is it.â€