Day: May 10, 2010

I’m killing  time  waiting  for  Shannon  to  get  home from her final exams. We’ll leave when she gets here. I think of that Jim Steinman phrase, “We were only killing time and it can kill you right back.”   I have to water the plants. My emotions  have been discordant all day, and I’m glad…

In grieving  situations,  you always play out the same scenes in your head over and over, turn it all over, analyze it, and —as Daddy used to  say—”talk it to death.” But that IS part of the process, whether it’s a death, divorce, or some other personal catastrophe. Late yesterday afternoon, I was still at…

It was one of those moments when it felt like the air had been sucked out of the room. Talk about teleportation! There’s a scene at the end of a Christopher  Reeve/ Jane Seymour movie, Somewhere in Time, where he reaches into  his  pocket  and  finds  a  present-day  penny,  which yanks him out of his…

I had planned to configure  the entire Spilled Candy website this month but I seemed destined to start with my own author  site (dreadfully outdated)  and launch  a new site I’m working  on, too. First.  And meanwhile,  I guess I have to learn some new software. Didn’t know I was going to be doing that,…

I knew it would happen sooner or later. I just didn’t know how. I’m going to be working on a project explicitly for Christians. Oh, lots of other projects, too, but at least this one will be for  Christians only.  I’ve  studied   several   religions and come  to a number  of surprising  conclusions. Surprising,…

A couple of cousins I haven’t seen in decades came to visit this morning while I slept in, one in particular. They probably don’t know they were here. They came in the Ether, which tends to happen only with those I do energy work with or for or with those with whom I have a…

My dad’s health is getting worse. He’s completely bed- ridden and on full-blast  oxygen now. No visitors except for the trail of medical personnel. The girls are facing final exams this week after a very, very difficult semester that’s included romantic break-ups, funerals  of  friends,  and  stressful  competitions.  I  don’t want to add to their…

The Slasher is back. I don’t know who it is, but this person creeps me out. Because I work  with them in my day job…or at least in the same building. I’m not sure when it all started. Sometime after I’d left my current building back in the fall of 2002 for a position in…

We decided this year to have a happy home during the holidays. No matter what. A warm and loving place full of all things  we  love  and  with  an upbeat  energy.  Yes, there are tensions elsewhere and things  aren’t  perfect in other areas and some of our friends and family seemed damned and determined to…

My Christian colleague stood in front of the bulletin board in her oversized  office and lectured us heathens. “You  all  know  the  real ‘reason  for  the  season,’  don’t you?” I started to make a joke about keeping the “Soul” in “Solstice,”  but  I didn’t.  I was  having  too  hard  a time grasping the handmade sign…

Gah!  I’ve   heard   it   a   gazillion   times   now— someone misapplying the “Five Stages of Grief.” But this time, it’s being said to someone else and I get a chance to see it and its effect objectively.   The walls are thin and I’m waiting outside someone’s office while two…

I’m actively  working  on  all  sorts  of  little  things  to make my surroundings  more positive.  Some seem trite, but they all add up. Before heading out to work today, I checked my email and started to run out of the house when I thought better of it. I actually went back to my computer. See,…