Copyrighted by Lorna Tedder. Originally published in Third Degree Below.
I’m actively working on all sorts of little things to make my surroundings more positive. Some seem trite, but they all add up.
Before heading out to work today, I checked my email and started to run out of the house when I thought better of it. I actually went back to my computer.
See, the last email I read—the one I’d left showing in my preview screen because it was the last email the cursor was touching—was from a disgruntled author (not affiliated in any way with Spilled Candy Books). I won’t call her a friend because she isn’t. In fact, I have very strong negative feelings about this particular person and brief work we’ve done together. So, first of all, I was leaving an email showing from someone I have negative feelings about. Just a glance at it made my upper lip curl in distaste because, well, that’s what happens automatically when I see her email address pop up in my inbox whenever she posts to a writers’ community we’re both members of.
This particular post was ripe. I wasn’t the brunt of her wrath this time but another author was, whom she promptly crucified for having a differing opinion. When I read the message, I got the full effect of her negative emotions. And that’s the message I left on the screen. Hateful, angry, mocking.
That’s what I left showing, contaminating the room, contaminating me every time I glanced at the locked screen. It would be the first thing I saw upon returning home. It was the last thing on my mind as I began my day.
And I didn’t like that.
So I went back to the computer and minimized the email view, then clicked on a screensaver of Shannon giving me a kiss on the beach (could have been one with Aislinn, but this is the one I picked today). It’s a photo that always makes me smile, no matter what, every time I see it. That’s what I left on my screen the second time.
The last thing I see-and think about-as I leave the house to start my work day and the first thing I see when I return to my computer in the evening.
It’s a small thing, a very small thing, but it makes a difference in staying upbeat and serene.