Day: May 4, 2010
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What Do I Need a Man For?
My married friends—and many of my single ones—can’t understand why I’m not out there, bedding a different man every night. I’m free to do so if I choose. Or why I haven’t moved some 20-something boy-toy lieutenant into my home so I can have nightly foot rubs if not stimulating conversation. Again, I’m free to…
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I Love My Doctor!
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I love my doctor. Oh, not that way. Besides, I don’t go for teddybear types, no matter how sweet. Good surprises are really nice every now and then, and today was one of them. I’d gone to Dr. Z, fully expecting to leave with much less of a tooth, a much lighter purse, and the…
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Disgusted
I’m disgusted. I’m tired of being an idealist. I’m tired of believing in people. I’m tired of being disappointed. But on the up side, hey, my intuition’s dead-on. I think I liked it better when I couldn’t tell that people were lying to me. I hate it when a man mentions another woman to…
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Memorable Dates— and Phone Calls I’ll Never Forget
I’ve always had this weird thing for dates. Calendar dates, that is. If the General singles me out and asks me what he said five seconds ago, well, hell if I know. He’ll probably think I was sitting there thinking about sex instead of hanging on his every word. But ask me about a specific…
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No More Feasts of Scraps
Super Bowl, Schmuper Bowl. A bunch of guys running around in tight pants and acting like gorillas. Give ‘em some swords and let’s have some real fun. I’d totally forgotten about the Super Bowl until I decided to indulge myself, get out of the house, and do some ex- citing grocery shopping. I had to…
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My Conflicting Feelings on Brokeback Mountain
I finally went to see Brokeback Mountain, then came home, talked to a counselor of mine a while on the phone, and stayed up until 5:30 a.m. before meditating to make myself sleep. And still, the movie had me grinding my teeth in my sleep. I knew what it was about and had said I…
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Promises, Intentions, and the Road to Hell
I wrote a sentence today that shocked me as soon as it came off my fingertips. I probably stared at the computer screen for another five minutes, thinking of the implications. While arguing today with the roofer over whose responsibility it is to fix an error in the way they input my account, shaving six…
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The To-Do-Do-Do List
For such a crazy week, today turned out pretty good in that ordinary, mundane sort of way. Though I knew when I wrote shave my legs on my to-do list, I was already too busy. As for Groundhog Day, I’d waited to see if it would be sunny or gray, would the Winter stay or…
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Oh.
In Tarot readings, the 9 of Pentacles often shows up in readings to represent me, almost as often as the Queen of Wands. The 9 of pents, the Lady in the Garden, showed up in an unusual spot last week and I didn’t quite grasp it…until tonight when I was reading over a recent journal…
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Will It Be an Early Spring?
Changes are coming. Huge changes in my life. I feel them in the same way my parents feel the coming rain in their joints. I feel them in the same way an animal skitters to safer ground when they feel an earthquake coming. This morning, I walked outside, heading to work, and felt Spring in…
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“I Know This Guy You Should Meet….”
Another day, another colleague trying to fix me up with a new man. Sigh. Today, I just walked away. I just couldn’t stand to hear it anymore. Especially the advice on wearing a suit to meet them and not to mention my religion. I realize that, eventually, the urge to find a mate will get…
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The Virtues of Being Misunderstood
Jean and I had a terrible misunderstanding this week. It’s really a testament to our friendship that it was resolved so quickly. On Tuesday night, we had a long talk—while the girls were in and out of the room and constantly interrupting—about a meeting I’d had with someone interested in some of the experiments…
