Day: May 4, 2010
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“But First, Open the Door”
I feel another message coming on. As with other messages, it belongs to more than one person, and I can think of several of my rocket scientists who read my journals that this could apply to, based on our recent conversations. Seems the Ether has decided this is an appropriate way to get the word…
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Too Freakin’ Funny
I guess Spring is in the air because I’ve had six men ask me out in the past week. Two of them, I might actually go out with. Three of the others are maybes. The sixth man, well, I’ll get to that. The quality of men asking me out, in general, has gone up in…
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Phone-y Psychics
“This guy’s been bugging me to go out with him,” Laurie tells me over a cup of hot chocolate at lunch a couple of weeks ago. “He says he’s a psychic and he can tell I want to date him.” “Cheesy line. And he’s not psychic.” “How can you say that? You don’t know anything…
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Picturing Myself in a Different Way
My coach suggested back in October that I should post more pictures on my journal and websites, but I thought she meant it purely as a publicity thing. It did increase my feedback geometrically and some readers tended to enjoy the “fun with Photoshop” versions I did or seeing my disco days or just that…
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Return of the Friend-Boy
I ran into an old friend today. A friend-boy who’s been in and out of my life for over 16 years. The chance meeting almost didn’t happen—if I’d gone to lunch on time, if my all-day meetings hadn’t been cancelled, if I hadn’t decided to make a quick run for Chinese fast food so I…
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My Secret Compulsion
I hadn’t seen my cousin in years. The first things I noticed about her were the new boob job—very obvious even if she hadn’t had her dress unzipped to the navel—and the arm candy of a guy. Years of days in the sun, of nights of drinking, had taken their toll but she’d had plenty…
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My Own Personal Soundtrack
Being quite the lover of music, I sometimes find I have my own personal soundtrack running in my head. Sometimes, I don’t realize it’s even playing until I stop and think about it— and then it’s very telling. I’m convinced now that my angels and spirit guides talk to me through music…or maybe it’s just…
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IMPORTANT: Is This Message for You?
Sometimes, I’ll be in the midst of a conversation, and I’ll get a message for that person. Just a little whisper in my mind. Often, I won’t know what it’s about unless they’ve shared some of themselves with me. All I know is that I’m to pass it on to them when it comes. No…
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I Won’t Be Held Responsible
Is it possible for a co-dependent to no longer be co- dependent? I’d always thought it was “for life” and that the best I could do was to have better tools for dealing with it, but some- thing’s happening. I’m shedding again. Purging. More than that…I’m re-programming. Suddenly, I have flashbacks coming from my entire…
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Roses, Valentines, and Prostitution
Is Valentine’s Day really just a sanctioned form of prostitution? I don’t say this simply because I don’t have a sweet- heart this February 14th—I’ve been un-enamored of the holiday for several years. And that’s pretty funny coming from a hope- less romantic like me. From the Bookshelf Rite of Letting Go — a Southern…
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Do I Want to Be a Cyborg?
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Two of my favorite shows, when I was a kid, were The Six Million Dollar Man and The Bionic Woman. In fact, Lindsay Wagner’s bionic action-adventure heroine was my strongest Hollywood role model, which is why meeting her several years ago was such a thrill for me. But would I want to be part ma-…
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When the Student Isn’t Ready, the Teacher Will Appear… and Say No!
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This is a tale of one of my first students after I received my Third Degree Elevation, one who was desperate for me to teach her The Craft. Witchcraft, that is. I never did. I had taken a vow: I swear I will not teach The Craft to fools. When you choose your students,…
