Tag: Grief
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Slipping My Restraints
The idea of “play” has always been very difficult for me, at least since I was beyond my little-girl status…maybe, what? seven? eight? By the time I was a teenager, I was being told those were the best years of my life (you know, with raging hormones, mean girls, immature boys, zits…
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Comebacks
Copyrighted by Lorna Tedder. Originally published in Third Degree Curves. I finally got my hair cut. But that’s not the surprise. Yes, I’d meant to get it cut in March, but I was too swamped. While I took care of making appointments for everyone else, I didn’t get around to doing my own. Still, I…
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Do I Impact You?
If you miss someone or something, it simply means they had an impact on your life. It’s an honor to be missed—absence, more than anything else, can show how connected we are to someone or something, even if we didn’t realize it. When they’re gone, they leave a gap, even if we choose to fill…
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No Cure for Saturday Night Insomnia
I can’t sleep right now and I refuse to meditate anymore tonight. Sometimes these meditative visions…journeys…whatever they are…are more disturbing than nightmares, and this one has me crying. Hard. I can’t stop. I cannot stop. I’ve finished half a box of Kleenexes in less than 10 minutes and I can’t stop crying. I won’t sleep…
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“Get Closure—Now, Damn It!”
room with me, most of them backed away, not knowing what to make of my very public breakdown. We were all there for a 2-hour training session on the new Justification and Approval Guide from Part 7 of the Federal Acquisition Regulation, and yet I was on my knees with my face in my hands.…
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Healing Old Wounds
Healing old wounds of childhood trauma and self-esteem doesn’t come easily, but when it does come, it’s unexpected. Thinking back on my childhood, I might just as easily have been a child suicide. I remember thinking about it when I was nine years old, right after being humiliated in front of several hundred kids at…
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Walking Away from Someone You Love (and Hate and Fear)
I hated him. I loved him, too. But this is probably the first time in my life that I’ve been grateful that Daddy was a tyrant. It’s afforded me the opportunity to see his traits in others and identify others like him. From the Bookshelf Working Through Grief — gentle, practical help for coping with…
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Is this Message for You? (Dark Days, Lunar Eclipse, August 2008)
Is this message for you? As my long-time readers know, I occasionally feel the need to give someone a “message.” Often I don’t understand the urge to write these words and have no idea what I’ll say until it’s on the screen in front of me or who it is that needs to read it.…
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The Letting Go Song (Inspiration from ABBA/Mamma Mia)
I took my Broadway-Musical-loving Aislinn to see Mamma Mia a few nights ago so we could have some mother-daughter bonding time. I loved the movie–sucker that I am for musicals and reunion romances. It reminded me of when she and her older sister were little and I used to play ABBA songs while they danced…
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My Garden Gives Me Little Surprises (Or Is It the Fairies?)
” Will you dance with me, Mother of the World?” — Sharon Knight Sometimes, you find things in your garden that you’d forgotten. Mother’s Day was a little strange to me this year. The girls gave me some terrific presents, and afterward I took the girls to the farm to visit my mom, which was…
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Scorpio Moon: Is It Real or Is It Illusion?
Here’s a replay of a previous post about a ritual from 2005, just because we have double full moons in Scorpio with a Taurus sun for the April-May 2008 time frame. This was during my Cancer Scare of 2005–turned out to be a caffeine-induced lump–but I was just coming to grips with starting over and…
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Tarot: Card for Love and Innocence
Twice in the past month, I’ve drawn the Two of Cups. It’s one of the most beautiful cards in my Arthurian Tarot deck. A man and woman stand together aboard a dragon-faced ship, locked in a deep embrace, her head against his chest, his hand curling around her head. They are in love, and-I think-so…
