The first year I tried this exercise, I had a list as long as my arm. It was only “supposed” to be ten things, but I kept going, shocked at how much I’d kept bottled up. A few years later, the list was down to the five to eight range. Last year, I had to dig a little harder and still ended up in the five to eight range, thanks mostly to some secrets I was keeping for someone else.Every year of this exercise, the burden gets a little lighter.
Last year, for the 2010 version, I had absolutely nothing. No anger, no jealousy, no I’m-hurt, no why-did-you-do-this?, no nothing of that sort. I had little to nothing that I had bottled up, no emotion I was swallowing because I was afraid to say it or feared the ramifications if I did.
Every year, the burden gets lighter. I speak up so much more. I find it’s good for me to do that, even if some of the people in my life may be a little alarmed and even though it sometimes scares people at work, especially the bosses…if I’m being especially candid. But it feels so much more like I walk in my own power.
But don’t assume this year isn’t any different from last year, just because there is absolutely no one in my past or present that I feel I wish I could say something to but can’t. The biggest difference this year is not in what I wish I could say, but that I have people in my life who not only allow me to say what I feel the deepest or the scariest things that come to mind, but also welcome what I have to say. There is nothing, absolutely nothing, I feel I need to hold back. I can speak up and be heard and still be cherished for what I have to say.
Took a really long time to get here, but I’m glad I came.
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