Healing Yourself: Easing Dis-ease and Illness by Listening to How You Feel
Photo taken by camera phone at a beautiful lake near my house at sunset, April 2010, before the smell of oil tainted the air.Â Photo copyright by Lorna Tedder; all rights reserved.
One of the most valuable things Iâ€™ve learned in the past year is that I can cure myself, that I do have that power.Â Iâ€™ve also learned that itâ€™s not always easy for me to use that power.
Iâ€™m not new to the mind-body-spirit connection or to the idea that there is a metaphysical reason for various illnesses.Â I first heard insights on this back in the mid-90â€™s and later while listening to Louise Hayâ€™s audiobook, You Can Heal your Life.Â I could easily make the connection with sickness and injury Iâ€™d endured over the years:Â the lack of support that manifested as a mid-back injury; Â the rejection that manifested as nausea; the feeling that I couldnâ€™t move forward that manifested as a foot injury.
While listening to a Abraham-Hicks workshop from the late Spring of 2010, I heard something that resonated with me. It came at just the right time, too, because Iâ€™d been dealing with allergy-induced asthma exacerbated by the controlled burning of oil from the BP oil spill in the Gulf of Mexico.Â I smell the wind-driven fumes and immediately my throat closes up.Â Initially, it had started as an allergy to star jasmine (which all my neighbors tend to favor) and then to mold in a home where I was an overnight guest, and just got worse until I lost my voice for several weeks.
Iâ€™d read years ago that allergies were a sign of irritation and how if I could only let go of my irritations, Iâ€™d let go of the allergies.Â Uh-huh.
But what I heard in the Teachings of Abraham made me think about it in a different way.Â The advice given was to think about the symptoms of the illness or injury and find the emotion that matched it.Â Then ask if that emotion is one I was already feeling before the illness or injury occurred.Â Then, to find healing, shift that feeling to something better.
Something clicked.Â Itâ€™s not uncommon for me to realize I need to stay home from work for some reason and suddenly become sick long enough to miss the work day and then feel great.Â I can go to bed thinking that I really need more rest after a grueling week but I have to go to work.Â Then Iâ€™ll have insomniaâ€”â€œI need more restâ€â€”all night and wake up realizing that I absolutely canâ€™t go to work because I must stay home and get more rest.Â But thatâ€™s a simple analogy.Â Letâ€™s go for something more difficult.
I became ill during a breakup.Â Â I was, eventually, able to shift my emotions and heal myself, completely.Â My doctors thought it was somewhat miraculous but Iâ€™d been working on healing myself and figuring out what to do to heal myself for a long time.Â When I did, everything clicked into place and my test results were suddenlyâ€¦well, miraculous.Â I couldnâ€™t quite explain what had happened to change it but my feelings definitely shifted after I made a few key decisions.Â Now, when I look back and try to identify Â Â the emotion that went with my symptoms, it was one of feeling like a victim or as if Iâ€™d sacrificed too much.Â Iâ€™d felt that way before the illness took hold.Â Once I no longer felt like a victim, the illness disappeared.
Back to my allergiesâ€¦.Â They progressed to the point of becoming a trachea infection.Â That was a shock.Â Â The last time Iâ€™d had a trachea infection, Iâ€™d been on bed rest for a month, voiceless for three months, and didnâ€™t fully recover for a total of six months.Â That was five years ago.Â Then I made another connection:Â the person in my life at that time had reappeared and our interactions in 2010 closely resembled our interactions in 2005.Â That had to mean something.
Once I heard the suggestion to make the connection between the symptoms and the emotion, I understood.Â The allergens were irritants, yes, but the dominant emotion related to the allergy-induced asthma was annoyance.Â Had I felt that way before the asthma began?Â Yes, in relation to this particular person and his actions.Â I had felt annoyed.Â Â There were a few other related emotions I wonâ€™t get into but once I made the connection and began to shift my mindset away from thinking about his annoying actions, that particular allergy problem went awayâ€”overnight.
Sometimes it seems that I must simply acknowledge the symptomâ€™s underlying emotion and shift my attitude and feelings so that the symptoms are quickly gone.Â But itâ€™s not always easy.Â I am still having (different) allergy/asthma problems, and theyâ€™re tied to the BP Oil Spill.Â I am greatly annoyed and feel powerless.Â And I cannot yet shift my feelings or soften them toward the spill or toward BPâ€™s recklessness.Â I continue to smell the petroleum in the air and Iâ€™m immediately annoyed and impotent to stop it.Â Â And Iâ€™m angry.Â My throat closes and Iâ€™m driven back indoors to avoid the fumes.
So from a metaphysical viewpoint, I know how to heal myself.Â I just canâ€™t do it yet.