Kilter, Back On
Copyrighted by Lorna Tedder. Originally published in Love in the Third Degree.
Iâ€™m back on kilter. All it took was a conversation with my daughters over lunch and suddenly I understood.
We compared dreams from last night and while they werenâ€™t the same dreams exactly, the off-kilter feeling behind them was exact and there was a connection between the dreams. This has happened before. Several times.
You see, my dreams have a certain…texture…to them that I canâ€™t explain. There are times when they are meshed with someone elseâ€™s energy and feel foreign to me. I have, at times, dreamed other peopleâ€™s dreams and knew they werenâ€™t mine while I was dreaming them, but they helped me understand that personâ€™s fears. There are times when my dreams are metaphorical, instructional, prophetic. Sometimes theyâ€™re fear-based, though those come very rarely now as I have become more serene within myself. Itâ€™s the ones that donâ€™t seem â€œnaturalâ€ to me in their texture that really bug me. Thereâ€™s a differenceâ€”a heaviness, an oppressiveness thatâ€™s not mineâ€”that I canâ€™t explain to anyone who doesnâ€™t dream in the way I do. A few of my shaman friends understand this very well, but most people donâ€™t.
When Shannon told me her dream, I knew immediately what mine was about and what about it hadnâ€™t made sense to the point that it threw me off kilter. Itâ€™s a form of energetic backlash (directed energy, possibly) for some recent insights Iâ€™ve had and openly discussed online. I recognize the energy now…Iâ€™d just forgotten it was out there.
As a triple Pisces with Neptune in 8th House Scorpio, dreams are important to me, and theyâ€™re often a big clue to whatâ€™s going on both internally and externallyâ€”as well as etherically. When I wake with a â€œWhy would I be dreaming that?â€ hitting me full-force, itâ€™s usually something etherically pushing through.
The first clue to that is the content of the dream. The confirmation of it is the energy that comes with it and that tells me where itâ€™s coming from.
Iâ€™m learning more and more to recognize other people by the â€œenergyâ€ they give off. Itâ€™s as unique as any thumbprint or snowflake.