The Best and Worst of 2006
Copyrighted by Lorna Tedder. Originally published in Third Degree of Contrast.
At the end of the calendar year, everyone looks back in review at the best and the worst.
For me, I think the best and the worst are usually connected in some way. A death and rebirth kind of thing.
Saying goodbye to an old way of life opens to something new that can be more fulfilling.
For me, the best of 2006 was learningÂ to trust myselfâ€”my intuition, my desires, my will. The most significant part of realizing this Â self-trust was the moment my intuition kicked in and I actually listened to it and knew, knew, knew that it was right, regardless Â of what I heard on the physical plane to contradict my intuition. I did get confirmation on the physical plane later that it was right, but I didnâ€™t need it. I really didnâ€™t. Itâ€™s that gift of knowing that is the accelerant to the Law of Attraction and taking my place where I belong. This was such an amazing gift for me to claimâ€”finally, after all the people who told me to trust my intuition and then donâ€™t trust it if it went against their own preferences Â for Â my life. That was like seeing glimmers of sunshine while walking through a forest, Â and Â then Â suddenly Â emerging Â in Â sunshine Â and Â not about to take anyone elseâ€™sÂ word that it was night. Â So thatâ€”trusting my intuitionâ€”was definitely the best thing that happened to me in 2006.
As for the worst, most of the time it was a complete surprise. And then again, I guess because of my intuition, it wasnâ€™t, Â but I didnâ€™t Â understand Â then. The worst Â was definitely Â losing Â people Â I Â lovedâ€”abruptlyâ€”and Â saying goodbye to relationships Â I thought would be part of my life until I drew my last breath. I could not have imagined it Â any other way. Looking back, I understand Â now that those relationships were out of balance and probably had been for a while, and that losing them was absolutely necessary for my personal and spiritual growth. I donâ€™t think thereâ€™s any way I could have made the progress Iâ€™ve made in the past 6 months if those influences had remained so strongly in my life. I just didnâ€™t know it before and really had no clue. But then, in the past Â 3 Â years, Iâ€™ve stepped out of the shadow (both in a good and bad sense)of people Iâ€™ve admired and respected as well as those Iâ€™d lost respect for, and Iâ€™m finding to my surpriseÂ that Iâ€™m not withering in the unaccustomed sunshine and my opinions are strong and separate and I donâ€™t have to Â feel weak, hurt, Â bad, Â or Â defensive Â for Â having Â different Â opinions. Some of those relationships may reattach later in a different form, but I know, Â too, that other things must first come to pass.
I know…because…I know.
The best and the worst Â are gifts each in their own way, and neither can be returned.