Copyrighted by Lorna Tedder. Originally published in Third Degree Ebb and Flow.
There have been times in recent years when Iâ€™ve focused on breaking logjams. Lots of times. Both mine, and for other people who asked my help. Where I put my focus gets a lot of juice, sort of like a pressure washer blasting away in a concentrated area.
Just because itâ€™s difficult does not mean Iâ€™ll give up easily…or at all.
Iâ€™ve Â had Â people Â who Â didnâ€™t Â agree Â with Â my Â efforts. They knew only the surface of much deeper, hidden is- sues. They thought things were one particular way based on what they knew.
Iâ€™ve been questioned. Iâ€™ve been chastised. I was told more than once that I was trying to force something into existence Â thatÂ Â didnâ€™t Â exist. Â That Â it Â was Â something Â I wanted and not something that ever was. Iâ€™ve had my intelligence questioned, my ethics, my Â spiritualityâ€”all Â for believing something so strongly even when there was no physical Â evidence Â to Â support Â me. Â Iâ€™ve Â had Â my Â feelings hurt, badly, for following what I felt.
â€œItâ€™s not there,â€ I was told. â€œI donâ€™t see it being real.â€ But hereâ€™s the thing: they were wrong about it not being in existence. Nothing had to be forced because it was
there from the beginning, just not in a form that was recognized at the time. Things were very different from what was obvious.
My efforts were never to create what didnâ€™t exist but to free it.
Sometimes it takes a long while to blast loose a log- jam. When itâ€™s free, itâ€™s all the sweeter.
So letâ€™s keep those chins up, shall we? Iâ€™m still here, still blasting away. I donâ€™t abandon ship easily. Iâ€™m persistent, and steadfast.