Copyrighted by Lorna Tedder. Originally published in Third Degree of Truth.
â€œHave you noticed,â€ AngelSu asks me, â€œthat your inner chatter has stopped?â€
I would have been shocked at her observation, except that Iâ€™d had Â the Â same epiphany earlier in the day. With this new sense of calm comes a lessening of the â€œvoices.â€ Not â€œvoicesâ€ exactly. For people who arenâ€™t intuitive or arenâ€™t Â sensitive, Â the Â idea Â of Â â€œvoicesâ€ Â or Â â€œnoiseâ€ Â or â€œchatterâ€ is scary, straight-jacket Â stuff. Iâ€™ve read that itâ€™s very Â common Â among Â people Â with Â ADHD, Â among Â us INFJ types, among writers and artists and musicians and other people with very active and creative minds. Thereâ€™s always Â somethingÂ Â going on in the background. Â Always ideas Â bubbling Â up Â to Â the Â surface, Â even Â when Â weâ€™re focused on something Â else. Itâ€™s like having several TVs on different channels at onceâ€”we may be intent on one particular store but if the newscaster on the TV behind us says something interesting, we either vaguely register it or we Â swivel Â our Â attention Â to Â the Â newest Â distraction. Â So â€œvoicesâ€ are really more just ideas surfacing or energetic connections popping in to say hello.
â€œChatterâ€ is a good description. Itâ€™s not like a distinct voiceâ€”justÂ Â Â Â a cacophony Â of energy signals Â coming through to me, the human antennae. Sometimes it interferes with my sleep. Itâ€™s most prevalent when Iâ€™m highly attuned Â spirituallyÂ Â and Â messages Â areÂ Â trying Â to Â come through but canâ€™t seem to find the right frequency and I canâ€™t understand them clearly.
I didnâ€™t notice how quiet my mind had gotten until things got briefly â€œchatteryâ€ in a meditation. Â I addressed the chatter, things quieted, Â and then I realized I hadnâ€™t heard it in several weeks, with the exception of the insistence that I get a letter in the mail on a certain day before its recipient left the address. Otherwise, my sense of contentment with myselfâ€”with minor bursts of emotions to work throughâ€”has been pleasantly quiet.
â€œYouâ€™re getting a serene essence more than ever before,â€ AngelSu says.
Definitely. The chatter isnâ€™t the same as my intuition, but thereâ€™s a relationship. Â The intuition seems very clear, distinct. Itâ€™s like when my Â boss comes to my door and says, Â â€œHereâ€™s Â an emergency Â about Â to hit, Â one that you need to tend to now.â€ The chatter is more like when the new supervisor on the other side of my wall has a female guest or two in Â his office Â and I can hear most of the words, the laughter, the yelling, the constant hum of discussion with occasional details about things I really donâ€™t want to hear about.
â€œWhen things get chattery,â€ AngelSu suggests, â€œlook to the core issue. The chatter is a healing opportunity.â€
In reflection, I know sheâ€™s right in her assessment Â of my inner chatter. I think the more content, more serene state Iâ€™m feeling (with Â exceptions due to the fiscal year- end stress!) is because Iâ€™ve addressed so Â many of those healing opportunities.
My â€œchannelsâ€ Â are getting Â clearer Â now, my connections stronger. Yesterday morning, in a 10-minute Â meditation, Â I Â distinctly Â felt a connection Â with someone Â and heard his Â thoughts. Â Yeah. Â Definitely Â a shock. Â I wasnâ€™t reaching outâ€”he just popped into my mind. He was very focused on me, reaching out to me either consciously or subconsciously, wondering what I was up to and smiling about it. My mind was clear, for a change. The reception was sharp, and I heard and felt him very clearly.
Without the chatter causing me to tune out or question.
Sometimes I think my brain is just one giant radioâ€” sometimes Â a Â rocking Â good song, Â sometimes Â static, Â and sometimes messages from my sponsor!