No Jolt Colaâ€”Itâ€™s Just Me
Copyrighted by Lorna Tedder. Originally published in Third Degree Curves.
Ack! My mind is bouncing around all over the place tonight. Iâ€™m in hyperdrive. And that means Iâ€™ll fall asleep exhausted after doing everything tonight and still feeling Iâ€™ve accomplished nothing.
Iâ€™ve done really well in the last month or so toward focusing all that excess energy into productive intellectual pursuits, but every now and Â then, Â the energy manifests itself more physically Â than mentally and I just canâ€™t stop and focus on one thing. Fortunately, Â it doesnâ€™t last for days at a time, but it still annoys me.
It really wasnâ€™t bad when I had a house-full of family but when itâ€™s Â just me, by myself and the kids are with their dad, my focus shifts. Almost as if my energy alone has Â to Â expand Â physically Â to Â fill Â the Â houseâ€¦the Â whole house.
This is most likely because I collapsed into a nap the minute I got Â home from work today and now have all this extra get-up-and-go Â and tonight Iâ€™m taking the night off from Â working Â at Spilled Â Candy or doing Â any book writing. Unfortunately, Â I canâ€™t sit still and Iâ€™m not feeling very grounded.
Why does Â this Â annoy Â me? Â Just Â look Â at Â the Â past hourâ€¦.
The girls just left and thereâ€™s no power-walk tonight to help me ground so Iâ€™ll just go take a hot bath and con- template the cute guy I talked to at work today, but you know, Iâ€™m pretty sure heâ€™s married so Â whatâ€™s the use in even thinking about that when I need to figure out a marketing idea, so I walk into the bathroom and start to turn on the bath and realize that the girls havenâ€™t watered the plants this week and those 3 Â little Â ones are dead and I need to just go ahead and throw them out, so I walk back to the kitchen and get a trash bag to take to the bathroom but Â oh, Â wait, Â thereâ€™s Â a new Â email Â from Â a writer Â friend about our marketing idea but okay, Iâ€™ll answer back later because right now I really need to Â empty that trash can beside my desk and whoâ€™s been eating cashews Â because we donâ€™t have those in the house so they must have come from my exâ€™s via the girls and at least theyâ€™re not like the bazillion Â sunflower Â seeds Â that Â got Â spilled Â all Â over Â the kitchen two weeks ago and I had to clean them up while Aislinn held the dog out of the way but let me go back to the kitchen for that trash bag I left there and oh, while the dog is with the girls, I think Iâ€™ll go ahead and do some laundry, especially the dry cleaning but oh, wait, I forgot that Iâ€™m out of the home dry cleaning kits and Iâ€™ll just run up to the drug store that often has them on special and hey, thereâ€™s an empty bottle of laundry detergent Â on the washing machine so I better go ahead and toss it in the recycling bin but whoops, someone left a bag of trash on the garage steps after our massive clean-up this week so Iâ€™ll take that out to the curb right now while Iâ€™m thinking about it and now that Iâ€™m back in the house and loading some dirty towels into the washing machine, I need more laundry Â detergent, which I keep on a self in the garage because I bought tons of it when CVS had the $6.50 bottles on sale for $2.00 each and I cleaned Â them out and now the bottles are all gone but the last 2 and so I pick one up in the garage and notice the empty bottle from earlier still by the steps where I didnâ€™t take it to the recycling bin earlier so I do that now and go back inside and start a load of towels and then go back to the office to get another full trash bag and stop to look around the office at how much Shannon got cleaned up and put away from the to-do list Iâ€™d given Â her and maybe Iâ€™ll just go ahead and hop on the treadmill Â now and take a bath later and watch my Net-Flix TV series on DVD and oh, yeah, I got a Â newÂ DVD Â in today Â and what Â this Â one Â was, Â I donâ€™t know, so I go check it out and itâ€™s ho-hum and I leave it on the table and go back to Â garage to turn off the light and lower the garage door and then back to the office for those full trash bags which I take out to the trash can at the curb and go back into the house to find my purse and keys and put on a Â bra so I donâ€™t offend anyone at the drugstore and then I get into the car and head to CVS but theyâ€™ve just closed, Â so I head to the grocery Â store Â and pass the ATM and I need to make that deposit but I think Iâ€™ll do that at daylight and oh, I do need to make an appointment to get my hair cut at the place across the street and stop by Ace Hardware next door for some sprinkler repair material but everythingâ€™s closed except the grocery store so I find a place to park and head inside, realizing that Iâ€™m wearing Â pajama bottoms but itâ€™s okay because theyâ€™re very conservative and look like shorts and besides, most Â of Â the Â men Â here Â tonight Â are Â holding Â hands Â and wouldnâ€™t look my way even if I hadnâ€™t Â gone back for a bra before leaving home so I grab a cart and aim it at the laundry aisle but the flowers are really pretty tonight and I feel like purple mums at the moment so I toss them into my Â cart Â and Â pass Â some Â interesting-lookingÂ Â wheat-free waffles that I bet would taste good with the raspberries in my fridge and I finally make it to the laundry aisle and find what I need, along with some fresh-baked bread and dipping oils and Â some Â gourmet deli-type sweet potatoes and Â homemade Â stuffing Â in Â a Â display Â but Â you Â know, Â I havenâ€™t stopped by a blood pressure machine in this grocery store for a while so I plop down and put my arm in the Â cuff Â and itâ€™s higher than usual tonight Â by farâ€”125 over 74â€”so I pay at the cash register and rush my groceries out to the car and then toward home and I should probably stop for gas but no, I have cold stuff in the grocery bags and I really want to get home and take a long soak bath but when I get home, I have to put away groceries but first I check Â email to see if I got an answer back that Iâ€™ve been waiting on about that marketing idea butÂ no, Â the Â only Â email Â is Â spam Â from Â adultfriendfinder which is ridiculous with all its photos of male body parts and so amusingly typical of the male mindset in thinking that thatâ€™s what women want to see when itâ€™s what men want to see and sheesh, itâ€™s good for a laugh and then I go back to the kitchen and put away the frozen goods in the freezer near the office and thereâ€™s that treadmill and maybe I should go hop on it now and do the bath later but oh, yeah, I have more cold stuff to go in the fridge so I go back to the kitchen and put away the last of the groceries and put my mums in water and think that it sounds dirty when I think of it that way and then I get the dry cleaning started in the laundry room and decide to hop on the treadmill with the last half of Spanglish which I didnâ€™t finish Â the otherÂ night Â because Â I had to go back to work but hey, Iâ€™m not sure I turned off the water for the bath so I run back to my bathroom and sigh because I never turned it on, which is a damned fine thing that I didnâ€™t, and thatâ€™s Â when I notice the dress hanging from the doorknob and remind myself that I need to go ahead and sell it on eBay to put toward the Healing Center and oh, I left the dead plants in here that I need to take the kitchen and I donâ€™t remember where I put the trash bags so I go back to the kitchen and get myself a glass of milk and try to remember what I came back for and decide Iâ€™ll just go ahead and go to bed.
Yes, thatâ€™s my past hour. And now, I will attempt toÂ walk the length of the house to where my bedroom is, turn out the Â lights, and crawl into bed without anything shiny pulling me in a different direction.