New Moon Assessment: Whatâ€™s Working
Copyrighted by Lorna Tedder. Originally published in Third Degree and Rising.
Every now and then, itâ€™s time for an assessment. Not of whatâ€™s wrong but of whatâ€™s working. I try to do these at the new moon, but no more than that.
So whatâ€™s working for me that I plan to continue to allow to work for me?
– Enjoying the lovely little things. A walk under the stars. The so-bright crescent moon under a superbright Venus and lining up with Antares and the Hyades. The scent of honeysuckle growing over the trellises I built in the side yard. Repairing the lawn mower before realizing I need yet another part to keep it running. Seeing Aislinnâ€™s grin over the 600 photos she took of My Chemical Romance at their concert last night. Discussing ancient Latin P0rn0graphia with Shannon.
– Letting things happen in their own time. Some projects seem to meet a lot of opposition just bringing them to fruition, but theyâ€™re there at the right time for the person who needs to read them. Theyâ€™re also a product of the moment in time when they were being written and would never be the same at any other point in time just as any child born is a product of a specific moment in their parentsâ€™ lives and no other. This doesnâ€™t mean I donâ€™t take actionâ€”just that I donâ€™t beat myself up as much if it doesnâ€™t happen at the exact moment that I think/want/hope it will.
– Letting the world come to me. Obi-Wan mentioned something interesting a few weeks ago. She said that Iâ€™m like the Hierophant of the Tarot now, the spiritual teacher who holds keys. The difference is, I used to take the keys to others and now Iâ€™m holding the keys and letting people come to me. Itâ€™s really different. Instead of going after the things I want, I am letting them come to me. If what I have to offer is important enough, they will make the effort to seek me out.
– Allowing loving energies to connect with me and filtering out the murky or ill-intended ones before they reach me. Iâ€™m not getting so sidetracked in other peoplesâ€™ pain right now and so Iâ€™m less distracted from feeling really good about things in my own life and Iâ€™m not letting someone elseâ€™s drama or negativity leave me overly stressed. This is still a struggle but the improvement is vast. I am learning to distance myself from bearing the burden for others and merging with pain but at the same time I keep my sense of compassion.
– Observing rather than fixing. Oh, itâ€™s still hard. I want to dive in and help. But Iâ€™ve learned that itâ€™s usually either not wanted, not even recognized as help, or not the wonderful thing Iâ€™d want it to be. Sometimes people have to struggle, like the bird pipping or dying if itâ€™s too easy because you pull the shell off to set him free before heâ€™s mature enough to make it in the world thatâ€™s open to him. The struggle makes some people stronger and they must have the strength and clarity to meet their potential.
– Lighting candles regularly for unconditional love. I do this for several people, just to help light their way and keep them in my heart. I donâ€™t think any of them know. Itâ€™s a hard thing to say, no matter what, I love you anyway. And at the same time, itâ€™s also becoming such a part of me that I donâ€™t even think of it as hard or easy because itâ€™s just part of who I am now. I was never able to do it for my dad because I had too many issues to work through and too many deep wounds back to my tiny years, but Iâ€™m at a better place with even that now, too.
– Surfing. Thatâ€™s what I used to call it when I would ride the waves of my emotions and lifeâ€™s dramas, not making hard and fast decisions when I was on top or on bottom. Every now and then, I have to let a wave of loss wash over me, but Iâ€™m still upright and moving forward.
– Letting go of the past, trusting in myself, and having faith in the future. And being open to wonderful surprises.