Thatâ€™s the Way I Like It
Copyrighted by Lorna Tedder. Originally published in Third Degree of Freedom .
I am in love with this feeling, the fire of creativity coursing through my veins. I canâ€™t remember when itâ€™s been so strong or so furious or so insistent. Itâ€™s said that we find moments of immortality, that we defy death, in the god-moments of creativity, of passionate love, of procreation. This feels like all three rolled into one. Can grabbing a power line be any more intense?
Iâ€™m in the home stretch with writing Dark Revelations and Iâ€™m loving this novel. I donâ€™t want to sleep or talk or even go for a long walkâ€”though I need a break to ground myself. I donâ€™t want to do anything but write and lose myself in it. Itâ€™s like channeling from the core of the Earth, up through my feet. Itâ€™s like drawing down the moon and sun and all the celestial bodies at once. A full-body mental ecstasy.
Itâ€™s been a long time since Iâ€™ve felt this way. Like all the wet blankets over my fire have been ripped off and my little spark has become a bonfire fed by sulfur.
And the crazy thing is that I canâ€™t wait to be done with this book! Not just because of the deadline looming in a few days but because I have so many other books I canâ€™t wait to write, both fiction and non. Iâ€™m already stocking up on batteries for my digital tape recorder and making arrangements for an assistant to transcribe my spoken words. Iâ€™m not even sure whatâ€™s next because I have so many projects running through my head, demanding my love and attention.
I have it back now. I have it back! Something Iâ€™d lost in the past few years, thanks to baby-editors, changing market conditions, the push to write just what would be successful commercially, the resistance from all those around me.
This is the energy I put into just fighting to be myself. Now that I can just beâ€”or the closer I come to itâ€”this river of energy is being redirected to its natural channels.
Yeah. This is the way I like it.