Day: May 1, 2010
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Too Stupid To Live?
Copyrighted by Lorna Tedder. Originally published in Life in the Third Degree. How did I get to be so stupid to people who supposedly think I’m so smart? My ex-husband of two decades, a dear confidante of 5 years, and now a business partner and friend of 12 years. All treating me as though I…
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Defining Moments
Copyrighted by Lorna Tedder. Originally published in Life in the Third Degree. Snippets of conversations sometimes come back to haunt me. Rarely are they words I’ve spoken myself, so it’s not a matter of regretting something I’ve said or done. Vicki tells me that middle-age spread is a direct result of eating your own words…
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The Dangers of Making It Work
I’ve spent the past hour talking to a man who interests me. Though I think he interests my friends more. He’s everything they seem to want for me. The proverbial tall, dark, and handsome. Extremely intelligent. Very successful in his career field. Stylish and enough grace to indicate that he probably has more subtle moves…
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Watching the Show
Copyrighted by Lorna Tedder. Originally published in Life in the Third Degree. I’m supposed to be devastated. Everyone said I would be devastated. But I’m not. Instead, I’m…bemused. My daughters have just returned home with news that their father has a girlfriend. Having been forewarned and forearmed, I wait for the aftereffects. From the Bookshelf…
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Private vs Discreet
Copyrighted by Lorna Tedder. Originally published in Life in the Third Degree. Discreet relationship, my ass! I wouldn’t mind a private relationship, but there’s a big difference between a private relationship and a discreet one, usually the marital status of one or both parties. What is with these married men asking me out?! I’m divorced,…
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Letting It Happen
I have no fears that I will not be loved again. I have seen it. Better, I have felt his feelings for me—from the inside. We can hear men tell us how they feel about us and hope they’re not lying. But we can never really know for sure. Except…in one regard, in one instance,…
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Pimping Out the Digs
Copyrighted by Lorna Tedder. Originally published in Life in the Third Degree. “Excellent!” declares my writer pal, Kathleen. “This is the best news I’ve heard from you all year.” Huh? The fact that I’ve been repainting the interior of my house in purple and green is the highlight of my year, as far as she’s…
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Separating Loving from Longing
It’s been a long night, and I haven’t slept a wink. Again. I could blame it on this insane trachea infection that’s finally starting to yield, but I won’t. I’ve been working on a book proposal, and while it’s kept my energies channeled in a positive direction, it’s also brought up emotions I don’t have…
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The Scary Truth
I thought it was just me. Instead, I find it’s every divorced woman I know between 30 and 55, and a few men as well. We’re all clueless about what to do next, and none of us like it. We’ve lost control over our lives. We all had a plan. We all know exactly how…
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Drawing the Two of Cups
Copyrighted by Lorna Tedder. Originally published in Life in the Third Degree. Twice in the past month, I’ve drawn the Two of Cups. It’s one of the most beautiful cards in my Arthurian Tarot deck. A man and woman stand together aboard a dragon-faced ship, locked in a deep embrace, her head against his chest,…
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The Sex Dilemma
It comes as a clear revelation to me in the middle of a night when I’m sick as a dog and my head is foggy with cough syrup: I can fuck anyone I want. Okay, with the exception of The Treat, who’s off-limits. But yes, anyone I want. From the Bookshelf Rite of Reckoning —…
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Bringing Unaware Patterns to the Surface
The Treat. He’s the King of Wands, and I’m a cold, heartless b**. I’ve heard of him before, in this terminology. Last October, while my divorce case was in full-fledged hell, I’d asked a church Elder to lay a Tarot spread for me. She didn’t get around to it until two weeks after the divorce…
