What It Is Wednesday: Losing Faith

  “I lose my faith in people…why even take the time?” –“Shut In” by Strand of Oaks Sitting in the doc’s reception area, waiting to be called back, & I just keep shaking my head…

What It Is Wednesday: The Lie of Leading Someone On

  I’ve seen this more than once & my intuition flamed every time & I ignored it. Guy tells me something a little…odd…out of the blue. It’s a half-truth but bc I believe him to…

What It Is Wednesday: Friends? Friends!

I have never at any one point in my life had more close friends I can count on than at this moment. That realization both surprises me and makes me smile. It’s unexpected. It’s beautiful….

What It Is Wednesday: Cutting People Out

I am known for cutting people out of my life. That’s because it’s an external response, sometimes a very public one. What isn’t known is the months or even years  of internal response, the patience,…

What It Is Wednesday: Fighting Back

Some days I wonder if I might burn in Hell for the things I’ve done, namely times when I’ve balanced a mighty imbalance or justified filling a vast injustice so that the landscape could be…

What It Is Wednesday: Killing Off My Core Belief about Marriage

For most of my life, I’ve been pretty happy with the idea of undefined relationships. They could be close and emotionally intense and defy all known tropes in a romantic relationship. Here’s the thing: I…

What It Is Wednesday: How Prayers Are Answered

I believe the answer to prayer takes the path of least resistance. Sometimes praying for something better means everything around you falls away harshly before something new and good can grow out of scorched earth….

What It Is Wednesday: The Coldness of Self-Protection

I feel ashamed at the moment. Facebook Memories are messing with me badly. Most of those old posts that are being resurrected via FB are private/only for me, but they still pack a wallop. One “memory” turned…

What It Is Wednesday: I Wish I Were Younger

For the first time in my life, I wish I were younger. Probably not for reasons you might think. I’ve always fired back at newly-forty-somethings who insist they’re old and promptly pigeon-hole themselves into an…

What It Is Wednesday: Orange Tabby Cats

Orange tabby cats make me feel better. Why? Because they are my reminders to keep the faith, to keep my focus on where I’m going. Whenever I start to doubt, they show up. Like in…