Just Enjoying the Moment
Copyrighted by Lorna Tedder. Originally published in Passion to the Third Degree .
Iâ€™m not â€œin a relationship,â€ but this new friendship is proving to be very enjoyable. In some ways, I think itâ€™s an anti-relationship because Iâ€™ve set the ground rules early on of no-pressure, just enjoy each otherâ€™s company, treat each other well, and be honest. Iâ€™ve known from the first conversation that there would be something healing and very, very beneficial about these exchanges, and there isâ€¦for both of us, I think.
Iâ€™m having a great time with a fun and intelligent man who makes me feel like a woman, Iâ€™m talking through things that happened years ago that Iâ€™d forgotten about and had not even realized how much Iâ€™ve healed or moved on from, and Iâ€™m certainly learning more about the medical profession than I ever expected to have demystified for meâ€”as well as why physicians have such high divorce rates when â€œdoctorâ€ is the number one keyword search in the Internet dating world.
I canâ€™t say, â€œNo expectations.â€ I always have expectations, I think, but the difference is, they are now â€œin the momentâ€ rather than toward anything in the future. Heâ€™s in a new situation and I know the landscape quite well. I definitely paced it enough when I was newly divorced. Iâ€™m not sure if he knows what he wants yet and it wouldnâ€™t be fair of me to manipulate him into thinking Iâ€™m what he wants. He has to decide that for himself, without any help from me other than the fact that I exist. I know far too many women who would be gushing over his profession and already trying on his name and income, and thatâ€™s just not me. I wonâ€™t take emotional advantage of him.
So while Iâ€™ve been laughing a lot more this past week or so and enjoying some rather profound conversations, no, Iâ€™m not in a relationship. But I am enjoying being in the moment.