Why Canâ€™t I Be a Normal Girl?
Copyrighted by Lorna Tedder. Originally published in Third Degree and Rising.
Argh. I am so freaking tired.
The energies have been so heavy today, following the Virginia Tech massacre as well as things closer to home that arenâ€™t mine to deal with but I get them anyways…. Iâ€™d hoped to spend some time in ritual tonight, needed to for a calmer footing, but couldnâ€™t find the time. Ritual usually mellows me out or really excites me, but when I do ritual alone, Iâ€™m usually very calm and soothed afterward. I needed that tonight.
Instead, at 12:30 AM, I submitted the last of the digital files to the printer for â€œFire Burning in Water.â€ We finally got that last glitch worked out, plus added some nice quotes from Hertog and Hawking on the back.
Final page count: 224, same exactly as Laurenâ€™s â€œCelebrating the Tower Card.â€
We were a little surprised that the cover ended up not being blue. Last minute change. Itâ€™s black, with a full moon and silhouette front. In fact, itâ€™s that obsidian shiny black I sometimes encounter in the Ether with ice blue and white. Itâ€™s as cool a cover as â€œTower Cardâ€ was red-hot. But then, the tone is quite different, too. The author seems happy with it, at least!
If all goes well, weâ€™ll see the proof a week from tomorrow and itâ€™ll be available for print about (hopefully) five minutes later.
But no ritual tonight. Best I can hope for is a pleasant meditation that Iâ€™ll fall asleep during. I would have finished early but my downfall was double-checking a Stephen Hawking quote on the back and accidentally getting caught up in reading about some of his latest experiments and nodding furiously because, hey, I think heâ€™s onto something.
Sigh. Why canâ€™t I be a normal girl who doesnâ€™t get sidetracked with a fascination for quantum mechanics?