The Best Course of Action
Copyrighted by Lorna Tedder. Originally published in Love in the Third Degree.
Shannon is a Goddess-send to me right now. She and I have been through a lot of grief over the past six months—breakups, deaths, disruption, a lot of loss. In spite of spending the evening with her and a tow truck, she indulged me in two long walks. One or both of us cried during at least some of it. It’s been that kind of day. But walking helps me ground and we both needed to talk about the day’s not-so-good surprises.
I’m trying to figure things out, put some structure back into this tumbled down mess of a Tower Card. The first walk was rough on both of us because the tow truck had not yet come and someone had made of joke of her situation, which was enough to bring both anger and tears. By the second walk, I’d been given some new (physical) information to work through, and it confirmed a few things that made my situation easier to handle.
I’ve been told that there are some things you aren’t meant to release but to transmute. Logically, I understand. Of course, my third chakra is still trembly and my fourth is…burning. I’ve never had that happen before. There is literally a burning orb of energy in my chest. Not over the heart, but in the very center. The closest I’ve felt to it was a couple of years ago when Jeaneen opened my aura and my heart chakra sent rays through the ceiling, 20 feet high. I’m not sure yet what to do with all this.
But as I’ve told Shannon, I want to try to figure some things out, like what structure to follow and where to focus my energy and attention next. I need a plan of productivity and manifestation for all these projects that are nearly finished and that are so important to this new transition I’m entering…which will be a couple of months longer than I’d thought. I told her I was trying to figure out the best course of action.
We talked about how people do stupid things when they’re upset or emotional or overly worried. I thought about people in my past who’ve reacted to bad news as if they were grabbing a fire hose of energy and letting it take them wherever it would.
That’s why women are warned to remove all the knives from the house before telling their husbands they’re leaving them: the end of the marriage is the most dangerous time because so many men lose control and assault their soon-to-be-exes.
That’s why neglected wives often turn to other men or decide to find a different man every night to assuage their pain. That’s why fired employees are often told to leave the premises before they have a chance to sabotage the company’s assets.
I’m applying the counting-to-10 principle. Though I think I’m really counting months here. As I told Shannon, I’m not doing anything quite yet. I’m not pitching a tantrum or slitting my wrists or disappearing into Europe or collecting penises or waving handguns. I’m not calling down the Gods to punish anyone. What I’m seeking more of now than anything else is understanding, and I was told a little more of it tonight. Not nearly damned enough, but an interesting piece.
There are certainly things I could do, but as Shannon and I agreed, for the moment, my best course of action is none. We’ll see how I feel in a few days or weeks. Right now, it’s important for me not to take any action other than working through all the losses of the past few months.