Copyrighted by Lorna Tedder. Originally published in Love in the Third Degree.
A particular project has been giving me fits for almost two months. I just havenâ€™t been able to get into the right headspace to figure it out. Normally, I know itâ€™s going to take a little bit of focused concentration and then Iâ€™ll make the breakthrough. This is actually three software programs, not one, and I rarely have problems learning something new. One of my greatest strengths has always been the ability to learn.
But the concentration hasnâ€™t been there. Not for lack of trying. I just couldnâ€™t break through. Granted, thereâ€™s been a lot of turmoil in the past two months, but still!
Yoda suggested twice in the past two months that maybe Iâ€™d rather just not learn the new software and simply hire out the job. And for some of it, yes, thatâ€™ makes sense. The harder part, yes. But I still wanted to be able to make updates when I wanted to rather than turning over 300 pages to someone else and having to wait for them. I was at a point of not knowing exactly how much I could turn over to someone else and how much I should keep for myself because of the work that needed to be done.
Was it a matter of not being able to delegate? No, not really. It would take me as much time to give someone else a list of what needed to be updated as it would take for me to do it myself, probably more time in fact. It wasnâ€™t something that could be done and maintained by someone elseâ€”I will always have certain decisions to make every month.
I finally just gave up last night. I was at the point of having to admit I was never going to learn this new software, not even enough to do minor updates. I put in a call to Yoda, at last, requesting recommendations on who might be able to subcontract the work from me. My time was more valuable not to figure it out.
No kidding, I emailed her at 9:30. Within two hours, I was messing about with something else online and suddenlyâ€”click!â€”I got it. I knew exactly what the problem was. I flitted over to the software website, picked up what I needed, Shannon returned from a date in time to tell me she might be interested in working with the software, too, and wham! Iâ€™d created my first project in this new software. And omigods, is it gorgeous!
Sometimes it feels like the Universe holds things out of my reach until I give up, then it says, Well, okay then, here it is.
I wonder what else that works for. Because Iâ€™m seriously giving up on the possibility of any intriguing, date-able men in my life.
(If Iâ€™m not mistaken, thatâ€™s what happened last time someone amazing came into my life.)