The Best and Worst of 2006
Copyrighted by Lorna Tedder. Originally published in Third Degree of Contrast.
At the end of the calendar year, everyone looks back in review at the best and the worst.
For me, I think the best and the worst are usually connected in some way. A death and rebirth kind of thing.
Saying goodbye to an old way of life opens to something new that can be more fulfilling.
For me, the best of 2006 was learning to trust myself—my intuition, my desires, my will. The most significant part of realizing this self-trust was the moment my intuition kicked in and I actually listened to it and knew, knew, knew that it was right, regardless of what I heard on the physical plane to contradict my intuition. I did get confirmation on the physical plane later that it was right, but I didn’t need it. I really didn’t. It’s that gift of knowing that is the accelerant to the Law of Attraction and taking my place where I belong. This was such an amazing gift for me to claim—finally, after all the people who told me to trust my intuition and then don’t trust it if it went against their own preferences for my life. That was like seeing glimmers of sunshine while walking through a forest, and then suddenly emerging in sunshine and not about to take anyone else’s word that it was night. So that—trusting my intuition—was definitely the best thing that happened to me in 2006.
As for the worst, most of the time it was a complete surprise. And then again, I guess because of my intuition, it wasn’t, but I didn’t understand then. The worst was definitely losing people I loved—abruptly—and saying goodbye to relationships I thought would be part of my life until I drew my last breath. I could not have imagined it any other way. Looking back, I understand now that those relationships were out of balance and probably had been for a while, and that losing them was absolutely necessary for my personal and spiritual growth. I don’t think there’s any way I could have made the progress I’ve made in the past 6 months if those influences had remained so strongly in my life. I just didn’t know it before and really had no clue. But then, in the past 3 years, I’ve stepped out of the shadow (both in a good and bad sense)of people I’ve admired and respected as well as those I’d lost respect for, and I’m finding to my surprise that I’m not withering in the unaccustomed sunshine and my opinions are strong and separate and I don’t have to feel weak, hurt, bad, or defensive for having different opinions. Some of those relationships may reattach later in a different form, but I know, too, that other things must first come to pass.
I know…because…I know.
The best and the worst are gifts each in their own way, and neither can be returned.