Nature Isnâ€™t Always Sexual
Copyrighted by Lorna Tedder. Originally published in Third Degree Ebb and Flow.
Over three months ago, around the end of July, my guides told me that the man in my meditations feared he would do something Â to hurt Â me, something Â that would break my heart. I asked if he had ever done anything to hurt me and was told no, but he fears that something in his nature might cause me grief.
I cringed at the expression Â â€œin his nature.â€ Until this morning.
Thereâ€™s an old story about a man who encounters a scorpion (or a snake, depending on the story) at a riverâ€™s edge and the scorpion asks to be carried across the water so it wonâ€™t drown. The man tells the scorpion that if he does carry it across the water, the scorpion will sting him before Â they cross the river and then theyâ€™ll both drown. The scorpion promises the man that it wonâ€™t and the man finally Â relents. Â Half-way Â across Â the Â river, Â the Â scorpion stings the man and they both begin to sink.
â€œWhy did you sting me?â€ the man cries out with his dying breath. â€œYou promised you wouldnâ€™t sting me.â€
The scorpionâ€™s last words? â€œI couldnâ€™t help itâ€”itâ€™s in my nature.â€
Most of my life, Iâ€™ve heard â€œI couldnâ€™t help itâ€”itâ€™s in my natureâ€ spoken by men who couldnâ€™t keep their pants zipped. Â By Â virtue Â of Â being Â male, Â it Â was Â oh, Â so Â much harder to be faithful than for women and by virtue of being male and biologically predestined Â to spread their genetic material Â over Â as much Â fertile Â ground Â as possible, their Â nature Â warranted Â automatic Â forgiveness, Â with Â or without any repenting. Iâ€™ve always considered it a cop-out whenever a man told me that. A get-out-of-jail-free Â card. If a man is really so weak as that, then perhaps his wife should Â keep Â him Â in Â chastity Â to Â help Â him Â control Â his â€œnature.â€
This morning, I realized that â€œnatureâ€ isnâ€™t always sexual. It can also be in someoneâ€™s â€œnatureâ€ to be shy or am- bivalent or insecure in certain matters. It can be in some- oneâ€™s â€œnatureâ€ to bury themselves in their careers or their art so that they donâ€™t have to address their own pain. It can be in someoneâ€™s Â â€œnatureâ€ Â to be loving, supportive, compassionate, creative, and exciting, too.
There must be a million different things that can be in someoneâ€™s Â â€œnatureâ€ that might be construed as possible areas of contention Â or grief for me, a million different things that I Â can Â deal with easier than one might think, but the one type of â€œnatureâ€ that I focused on was probably the one that I could deal with the least well of all.
I donâ€™t know if thatâ€™s just a product of my raisings or if itâ€™s in my nature, but fearing the worst is another pattern I seek to break.