Tiny Unveilings and Ground-Shaking Epiphanies
Copyrighted by Lorna Tedder. Originally published in Third Degree of Truth.
I love the way you can learn something new, even a small something, about Â another Â person Â or Â situation Â or especially what motivates that person in that situationâ€” and it changes everything. I find that it usually either repels me in a way that cannot be reclaimed or it draws me much closer to the person.
Tiny unveilings. Ground-shaking epiphanies. Sometimes people try to tell me things, things theyâ€™re terrified to Â admit Â or Â deeply Â ashamed of. Â Iâ€™m Â dense. Â I donâ€™tÂ get it. Â So Â they donâ€™tÂ venture any farther because they think Iâ€™d reject them for their hidden truths.
And at other times, people try to hide things. Iâ€™m not so dense. I suspect. I feel. But with every denial they utter, I question the truth (at least to myself) until it finally comes out and by then, Iâ€™m ready to walk away.
But I love it when it comes out, as though the Moon of my Tarot deck has come out from behind the clouds and the hidden knowledge has been revealed. Just a tidbit of Â new Â informationÂ Â will Â soÂ Â oftenÂ haveÂ Â me Â saying, â€œOhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.â€
And then for the next week, Iâ€™m looking back at everything through new lenses. In my mind, Iâ€™m going back to a first Â meeting, to a tidbit of information in a stolen conversation, to a glance or an utterance. Everything has new meaning. Â A deeper Â level I didnâ€™t quite understand before. Â Itâ€™s Â like Â reliving Â the Â entire Â life Â experienceÂ Â of knowing someone but now in an alternate universe where this information Â is part of the world we know when it wasnâ€™t before.
Sometimes when things Â are revealed, Â Iâ€™m disgusted.
The truth comes out and I have to excise the cancer for my own health.
But sometimes, like this week, new things are revealed and Â Iâ€™m Â left utterly, Â totally Â intriguedâ€”and Â wondering how I could have missed this two years ago…exceptÂ that it just wasnâ€™t the right time.