Pencil in Some Fun?
Copyrighted by Lorna Tedder. Originally published in Third Degree of Truth.
My mentor applauds my high-focus Â on getting projects Â completed and new ones Â kicked Â off. There Â is, of course, a â€œbutâ€ to this praise.
â€œHmmm,â€ Â she Â says. Â â€œYouâ€™ve Â planned Â for Â activities that support the career sector, the home sector, the spiritual sector, the health sector. About the only sector thatâ€™s devoid of any planning is your â€˜funâ€™ sector.â€
Groan. There are things that must be done before I can have fun. Having fun is like dessert. Itâ€™s a treat you donâ€™t get until Â youâ€™re done with the yucky, slimy stuff. Right?
â€œSo what are you going to do for fun over the next three weeks? I donâ€™t want to pressure you. Just one thing. You can find time for one thing thatâ€™s fun, canâ€™t you?â€
I cringe and promise Iâ€™ll take a couple of hours to go see a movie.
Over two weeks have passed since that conversation. No movie. In fact, I havenâ€™t even turned on the TVâ€”not onceâ€”in over a month. My leisure sector is sadly lacking, but I can console myself that itâ€™s the most Â horrid work month of the year and the month will be over in a few more hours. I have managed to hang out for a few minutes in my garden but not much else. Nothing that couldnâ€™t be combined with one of my other Â sectors, mistress of efficiency that I am.
And then AngelSu hops on the bandwagon, too. This is shortly after we come up with some wonderful new affirmations for me:
– I am my future self radiating into the present.
– I believe in all that I do, and I do what is mine to do.
– I remember who I am beyond my physical identity.
– I am familiar with my true meaning.
– My thoughts shape my reality.
– Where I put my focus gets a lot of force.
â€œLorna,â€ she says out of the blue in that sweet, contemplative voice of hers, â€œyou enjoy so many things!â€
I hadnâ€™t thought of it that way before. Usually I think of only a few Â things I like to do, probably because Iâ€™m thinking of them whenever the Â question is raised. But I really do enjoy so many different things, including things that donâ€™t seem very active to other people.
Itâ€™s the Â walks Â in Â the Â grass, Â people-watching Â at Â the Commons, talking and laughing with people, music and candlelight when Iâ€™m alone, dinner with the girls, watching a campfire as it dwindles, sitting on a porch swing in the shade, watching Â the sun set (or rise) over the water, perching cross-legged on the floor with friends, the smell of incense after a ritual and the way it lingers in the air, treasure-hunting Â with Â the Â girls, Â decoratingÂ Â my Â house, singing with the girls, listening to a band play live music, watching the fireflies in the woodsâ€¦so many little things. â€œWork on bringing forward all those things you like,â€ AngelSu tells me. â€œThis is a refinement Â period for you. This is your time to decide what in life pleases you. Call
that in. Call it to you.â€
So I am. On this utterly beautiful Â Autumn Â day that feels like springtime, when thereâ€™s not a cloud in the sky but the monarch butterfliesÂ are plentiful, the flowers are lush, and the mockingbirds are serenading me, Iâ€™m calling in a little bit of fun.