Beginnings, Endings, Revisitations
Copyrighted by Lorna Tedder. Originally published in Third Degree Tilt.
Things are coming to an end, unexpected Â things. Iâ€™m disconnecting Â from so many things that were so important before. Places, people, ideas. Things that donâ€™t work anymore.
There is a sense of new beginnings, and thereâ€™s excitement that goes with that, even while thereâ€™s a strange sadness that accompanies the endings.
And amidst all this is a revisitation of things I thought were gone, Â things Iâ€™d thought could never work, things Iâ€™d set aside for forever. Itâ€™s Â almost as if I could vanish and start my life over in a day. Whatever this is, Iâ€™ll stay open to it, because Iâ€™m realizing now how many people love Â me Â but Â have Â their Â own Â agendas Â that Â arenâ€™t Â mine, arenâ€™t good for me, arenâ€™t what I want.
I have to follow what I want, not what everyone else wants for me. I have to do what I need to do, not what everyone else needs me to do. Weâ€™ll see whoâ€™s here when this phase has passed, and who has been passed by.