Beginnings, Endings, Revisitations
Copyrighted by Lorna Tedder. Originally published in Third Degree Tilt.
Things are coming to an end, unexpected things. I’m disconnecting from so many things that were so important before. Places, people, ideas. Things that don’t work anymore.
There is a sense of new beginnings, and there’s excitement that goes with that, even while there’s a strange sadness that accompanies the endings.
And amidst all this is a revisitation of things I thought were gone, things I’d thought could never work, things I’d set aside for forever. It’s almost as if I could vanish and start my life over in a day. Whatever this is, I’ll stay open to it, because I’m realizing now how many people love me but have their own agendas that aren’t mine, aren’t good for me, aren’t what I want.
I have to follow what I want, not what everyone else wants for me. I have to do what I need to do, not what everyone else needs me to do. We’ll see who’s here when this phase has passed, and who has been passed by.